LETTERS TO KUKUA 1.

Dear Kukua,

We’re 16 days into the new year already and I hope you didn’t forget I’m a year older today. As I near a significant life milestone, I’ve never felt more prepared to meet you (or have I already). I’ve thought about writing this letter for years, but I haven’t been able to put my feelings into words. This time, as I’m writing, I’m just letting my heart speak. I hope that, like me, you are experiencing life as it unfolds and learning important lessons along the way.

I’ve never started a new year feeling this confident and upbeat about the promise of God in my life. In this chapter of my life, I’m doing the best I can while relying on God to take care of the rest and guide me. We’re barely into 2023 and a lot has already happened to make me feel optimistic about what the future holds. At a bizarre gathering, I had one of life’s most unusual and surreal interactions with a stranger, which strengthened my faith in God. Since I still need to keep it gangster (you should know by now that I’m a Gee), I won’t use the L word right now, so I’ll keep it PG instead. I’ve finally come to terms with the fact that I have feelings for someone, and even though I can’t be with her the way I want to, I hope she understands that I’ve only ever been sincere with her. She’s not mine but even still she moves me in such a way that I sometimes lose control. The saying “You don’t get to choose who you fall in love with, Love chooses you ” is now clear to me and in this case, Kukua, I believe it very likely did.

Anyway, I’ll leave it at that and hope you’re learning a lot about yourself, life, and living it, and that you’re letting God take charge of your life as he is mine. When we do finally meet, I hope you’ll tell me how you journeyed your way through life to finally be with me. Till the next time, take care.

With Love

Caleb

P.S: My words are just the colors to the paintings in my heart