I think I love you way more than I should. Maybe it’s the fire in your eyes, the stride in your step or it’s just simply how you make me feel when you look at me. You’re an amazing woman, that much can be seen and I’ve been royalty long enough not to recognize a Queen.
I’ve felt compelled to say something for a long time and being that this is therapy for me, I put this piece together just to hope that you might notice because though we’re very close, yet still far away from me. So, I want to hold you tightly, never let you go, hold your hands through difficult times, and always be there to celebrate the good ones. I want to give you forehead kisses and whisper into your ears when you get stressed. I want to be in the front-row seat, watching you conquer the world and achieve greatness.
I don’t know what’s gotten into me that has got me writing this heartfelt soliloquy which I don’t normally do. You’ve got me operating outside my comfort zone and not feeling quite at home. Even though I sometimes hate how much I feel for you, I also enjoy every bit of it. When we speak, we vibe on a mental, like we’re on the same wavelength and you understand me in a way nobody does. Whenever I’m in your presence it makes me want to be a better man. It’s hard for me to describe or even comprehend this feeling because whenever I’m around you, I feel seen even in the most crowded of spaces, and I feel heard over the loudest noises. You laugh at my silly jokes even when they’re not funny and you always push me to conquer the world.
I now know what it feels like to not get to choose and just fall in love with this person who is all wrong and all right at the same time. All I know is that I love you and you drive me completely insane and I can’t explain it because it’s all new and confusing to me. Sometimes I wonder how we’ve been in each other’s orbit for so long but yet still our paths never crossed, till now when you already belong to someone. I know you have another situation going on. I respect that completely and to not complicate your life or mine, I’m going to let you go. Even though my heart and mind are screaming to hold onto you, I know I deserve more than you can give me. I can’t hold on for much longer and loving you is not enough. Love might have been enough for bringing us together but not quite in carrying us through the journey of life. I guess when you love someone, sometimes you have to let them go. I wish you all the best and I just hope you know that it is ok to let someone new love you properly as you should be loved because you are worth every bit of it.
P.S: I hope that on your bad days, there is someone there to make it better, someone who wants to understand, someone who just wants to sit there and just listen
With All My Love,